more proof that life isn't fair for ME!.. what a surprise.

ics called me this morning and asked if i wanted to have a session. so i said i'd be up for a session because i had just got done eating and brushing my teeth. we checked on if the boston housing company we were gathering information for had received the doctor's note saying i was disabled and how accessible housing would improve my living. i had given the doctor's office the mailing address to the housing company and so we called to check on it. then they said we could have it emailed if it hadn't came and it'd be faster. so he got the email address from them and we were filling out the past apartments info. and zen was looking through my past emails and he found the email from the past caretaker at burnsville and then zen said, "i don't know if they'll still take you, it may be a little harder since i read in this email that you were evicted from the apartment in burnsville." then i said, "i was upset and made a scene because NO ONE would address my smoking complaints in a NON-SMOKING APARTMENT! i couldn't breathe because i had AT LEAST 2 or 3 surgeries on my palet! PLUS- IT SAID WHEN YOU CAME INTO THE FRONT DOOR THAT IT WAS A NON-SMOKING ENVIRONMENT AND I GET PUNISHED FOR IT?!" then zen said, "well.. it might be more difficult to get you in an apartment.." i remember when joe came to my apartment in burnsville and he told me he had to wash his clothes because they smelled like SMOKE from JUST visiting me ONCE. THAT'S HOW BAD IT WAS. i get punished for people's lack of care to do the APPROPRIATE WORK to make sure a "NON-SMOKING APARTMENT" has CLEAN AIR AND A CLEAN ENVIRONMENT. RIDICULOUS. so zen told me to get the names of the past apartments i lived at and the dates of the times i lived there. i asked my case manager for this information and she replied back with the information i requested within about an hour. people's lack of care and negligence is preventing me from MOVING ON WITH MY LIFE AGAIN!.. what a surprise. it's like they won't be satisfied until i'm an unemployed chain smoking bum. WHATEVER'S MORE CONVENIENT FOR THEM! RIGHT AMANDA?! MINNESOTA IS THE BEST FOR HEALTH CARE!.. so it should just make me alright to live through throat and/or lung cancer! so i can be by my family who only pays attention to me when it makes them look good or it's convenient for them! woo!..shaddup. you're all careless, selfish, and ignorant asses. i'm just gonna keep going to sabathani and just keep my eyes on the prize while completely IGNORING people's attempts to drag me down with them because MISERY LOVES COMPANY!